Just in case I die.

I was asked to teach a lesson at our women's group at church tonight. It might literally end my life as I have a paralyzing fear of speaking to say, more than 2 people at a time. I have it on good authority that there will be more than 2 people there. So the odds of me freezing up and falling over are pretty good. On the plus side I was given a topic that I really enjoy. Finances. I've really come to respect rather than value money and I think it's made a huge difference. I also have some pretty good influences in my life when it comes to financial decision making and I'm very thankful for that. I can only imagine how hard it was for these positive influences to painfully watch some of the financial choices Joe and I made early on. But they've been there with advice and the occassional surprise from "Ed McMahon" when things were rough. I will take the heat for those bad choices since I was the driving force behind most of them. However, it's nice to feel like we're on the right track. I hope I'm able to share with great clarity, passion and also sympathy the importance of having your finances in order and how to create and stay on a budget. But in the event that I do die from public speaking, Joe, my will is in the filing cabinet, my secret chocolate stash is in the island drawer and I told you that speaking in front of people would actually kill me. ;)

~*~* UPDATE*~*~
I did not in fact die. Though I wish I had. I think I did a perfect interpretation of "goat boy" for the first few and last few minutes of the lesson. I was able to pull it together (mostly) for the middle of it all. *sigh* I don't know how people do this sort of thing for a living.